Its been quiet on the home front over here. I don’t know if its called writers block or a growing period, but the silence is not silence at all. My mind has been racing a million miles a minute, but expression of words will not come out. Until now that is.
Ive sat down at this computer several times over the last week thinking… “ok God, what do you want from me? How will you use me to day to lift others, encourage them & show them the light in darkness?”
Its one of those things where you want to share the joy, the good news of freedom, but when you are experiencing depression yourself, you often wonder, how can I help others when I myself don’t have it figured out.
This is where the cliche “take up your cross daily” comes in! No seriously! The secret isn’t to have it figured out. The secret isn’t defeating depression or finding happiness that lasts a life time. It is waking up each and every single morning choosing Joy, choosing Gods way instead of the ways of the world. It is waking up each morning and taking up your cross (a death instrument symbolizing freedom) & pressing forward, trusting that God is in control. Trusting Gods word Jeremiah 29:11 “For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.” Knowing that God will walk with you through every storm and every victory.
Just over the last 7 days, many of my depression symptoms have started to creep back in. OH THE QUESTIONS… Am I good enough? Should I just give up? Is it worth it? When will this storm end? And then self deteriorating statements… I’m not smart enough. I can’t do this. I don’t want to get out of bed.
This thing called depression creeps in like a shadow at dusk. You don’t ask for it. You don’t know its coming. Just one day you wake up and BAM… Your brain functions flips like a switch. You sleep in a little more and a little more each day. You let small obstacles defeat you. You don’t want to hangout with your friends or even be out side. Then you begin to think you aren’t enough. That you will never be enough & that your efforts are worthless.
THESE ARE ALL LIES OF THE DECEIVER!!!! Satan, I commend you to leave in the name of Jesus Christ the messiah, the son of God!
Step 1 to taking up your cross… call out satan’s lies & defeat them with the word of God!!
Guys! Jesus set the example!! He showed us how to defeat!
Matthew 4:1-11 “ Then Jesus was led by the Spirit into the wilderness to be tempted[a] by the devil. After fasting forty days and forty nights, he was hungry. The tempter came to him and said, “If you are the Son of God, tell these stones to become bread.” Jesus answered, “It is written: [Defeating satan with Gods word!!] ‘Man shall not live on bread alone, but on every word that comes from the mouth of God.’”5 Then the devil took him to the holy city and had him stand on the highest point of the temple. 6 “If you are the Son of God,” he said, “throw yourself down.
For it is written: (Satan trying to use Gods word out of context)
“‘He will command his angels concerning you,
and they will lift you up in their hands,
so that you will not strike your foot against a stone.’”
Jesus answered him, “It is also written: ‘Do not put the Lord your God to the test.’” Again, the devil took him to a very high mountain and showed him all the kingdoms of the world and their splendor. 9 “All this I will give you,” he said, “if you will bow down and worship me.” Jesus said to him, “Away from me, Satan! For it is written: ‘Worship the Lord your God, and serve him only.’” Then the devil left him, and angels came and attended him.”
“But thanks be to God, who gives us the victory through our Lord Jesus Christ.” 1 Cor. 15:57
“In all these things, we are more than conquerors through Him who loved us.” Rom. 8:37
“Be self-controlled and alert. Your enemy the devil prowls around like a roaring lion looking for someone to devour. Resist him, standing firm in the faith.” 1 Pet. 5:8-9
“Submit yourselves to God. Resist the devil, and he will flee from you.” James 4:7
Sometimes it doesn’t seem fair. Why aren’t we protected from satan’s attack? Doesn’t God care about us?
The truth is, WE ARE PROTECTED! God loves us so much, he gave us an entire book teaching us how to defeat satan. He has given us AMPLE amounts of information on HOW to rebuke satan. God loves us so much, He is with us even when we don’t know how to fight.
Joshua 1:9 “Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged, for the LORD your God will be with you wherever you go.”
Counter every lie satan has ever told you with truth:
When your past begins to haunt you : I am a new creature in Christ. (2 Corinthians 5:17)
You are useless : It is not I who live, but Christ lives in me. (Galatians 2:20)
You’re not good enough : I can do all things through Christ Jesus. (Philippians 4:13)
You’ll never measure up : I am God’s workmanship, created in Christ for good works. (Ephesians 2:10)
Google “satan’s lies & Gods truth” for more scriptures to help you defeat the lies that are pressing in on you!
As I lay in bed this morning, about to WAY over sleep, I had to remind myself that I am good enough. That I was not put on this earth to just take up space and die. God made me specifically me for a SPECIFIC purpose. Just like God made YOU specifically YOU for a purpose. Your purpose may be drastically different from mine and that is WAY OKAY! God needs all of his people in different corners of this earth to share his love and joy! We can’t all be in the same place with the same mission at the same time <3 that wouldn’t make sense.
This is me showing up to help encourage through the darkness. This is me taking up my cross & letting our savior’s light shine. This is me showing you, that WE cannot do it alone. We need God’s grace. We need our savior to make a way for us. This is me opening my eyes! Remembering that I need to pick up my cross daily. Not just one and done. DAILY!
Never forget to smile <3 you are worth it!